My Treadmill Fears.

Workout: 64 minutes elliptical.

So hard after 2 days off!

I have been thinking about.. (remember I said thinking) tossing around the idea... of participating in a friendly family run/walk partial marathon. That sounded really wimpy. The idea intimidates me, I have never liked running (that's code for "I hate running"). I just like the idea of having a goal to keep me motivated with working out. Last week my goal was to get out of my 3 times a day rut. I failed... I completed my 3rd workout today and it's Saturday. It was a hard week, there have been issues keeping me up at night and it has been emotionally draining. I was exhausted just being alive so I skipped my workouts on Thursday and Friday. I didn't feel good about that at all. Every week I have had a goal and met or exceeded it for 2 months (almost) until this week.

Now I am beating myself up and that's counterproductive, let's stop that!

Soooo I have found two YMCA events one is in October and the other in February.

The one is October has 2 parts; a half marathon (nonono) and a family 5k. Obviously I am considering the 5k lol.

Soooo.. this means I have to stop being an elliptical baby and get onto the treadmill. I am so scared of the treadmill! I think it's going to suck me in! I have many moments on the elliptical when I close my eyes and get a little dizzy. Then I have visions of falling off and maiming myself on the pedals! If I get dizzy on the treadmill it's going to throw me off and I will probably die a horrible death. A smelly gym floor death. And the gym people will hover over me and probably drip sweat on my lifeless body. Gross.