I am sick.
This week has been stressful.
Renee lent me her piccolo, so I won't have to play on the rented student model I currently have.
Ara has been sick for going on 5 days now, she even threw up again on Tuesday at the park.
Joey had spring break this week so I watched him on Tue and Thurs. He was really good but this week has just felt so crazy.
The crazy week isn't over until next Monday night.
I have completely fallen off the healthy eating wagon and it's no wonder I have no energy.
Rehearsal tomorrow (A's Mom is coming over to watch Ara)
Pic Lesson on Saturday.
Rehearsal on Saturday.
Performance on Saturday.
Easter.
Performance on Monday.
I need to remember to cancel my Saturday students ack, totally spaced that. I think I might cancel my lesson too. I really wanted to run that by Kashy but the rehearsal is later than I thought and it's all too much I think. At this point it will either go well or it won't I think. There isn't much point to cramming. Except on the cadenza which I have been ignoring!
I read this poll in my Parents Magazine asking if people thought it was ok to put videos of their children on You Tube. 67% (ish) said no and the quotes from parents were alarming. They basically were saying that putting your child's images online was inviting weirdo's to target them. My first reaction was fear, I immediately thought about taking down all personal information and images I have of Ara on my blog. Then I started thinking, why is it that we fear the internet so much? If Ara's picture came out in the Newspaper I think my Mother in Law would be thrilled and proud. But the very idea that I would put her son or granddaughter's images on the internet terrifies her. Is it because the internet is worldwide? Is the fear based on sheer numbers of possible views? If so why should that be something to fear? I'm not even saying I don't feel the same on some level, because I really really do. I am just trying to understand it. Somehow, someone far away seems more menacing than a neighbor. If I took Ara to a mall, hundreds of people could see her but that isn't scary is it? If it was... I think I would be blogging about a different topic, right? lol. The truth is, and when I say this I sound paranoid but the truth is that the people living close to us shouldn't be considered more or less of a threat than people we can't see and don't know on the internet. I like blogging because I can speak my mind and be personal but to the general reader I am basically anonymous. I don't know, I certainly don't want Ara's beautiful pictures to fall into the hands of a freak but on the other hand I love that this is a place to express myself. All of myself , including my love for my daughter.
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